Probably worse than ever...
So this past week or so has probably been worse than ever. There has been a LOT of smack flowing through these nostrils and I'm certainly reaping the consequences. I've been using every day for the past 8 days or so. I'm probably going to use today. Even though it's been every day, I'm getting withdrawal just from waking up today without it. The worst part yet is that I'm even using it behind my girl's back.
Yeah, so she was sick on Monday and just wanted to go lay in bed, so I bough some packs and decided to dose up on my own. I started with one, and I felt pretty good. I wanted more, though, it was kinda like an experiment to see what it would be like to do a bunch on my own. Soon enough, I was doing another dose. After that, I was feeling damn mellow and I knew I could be good for the night. Two is usually what it takes for me to get really fucked up and nodding out with my girl.
However, I decided to go for another. I knew this was a lot so I just did half of the third at first. I felt really good. I was watching some reality show and nodding out, but for some reason deicided to do the rest of the third. This is much more than I have ever done. I don't remember much of what happened after that. I definitely passed out. The next thing I know, my girl is coming down stairs, wondering what I'm up to. She finds me passed out on the kitchen table.
So she wakes me up, it scares the shit out of me. I jump up and onto the floor and start flailing all around and shouting about dropping a cigarette. My head then began pounding an ungodly migrain. I couldn't walk straight and my girl said that my eyes looked completely red and crazed. She eventually got me up stairs into bed and put a wet washcloth on my head for the headache which was unlike anything I've felt before. I tried not to fall asleep right away, because I knew I might not wake up. I definitely overdosed. I ODed and my girl probably saved my life by waking me up. There was a good chance she coulda found me cold and stiff laying across the kitchen table the next morning. I'm such a fucking idiot.
Yeah, so she was sick on Monday and just wanted to go lay in bed, so I bough some packs and decided to dose up on my own. I started with one, and I felt pretty good. I wanted more, though, it was kinda like an experiment to see what it would be like to do a bunch on my own. Soon enough, I was doing another dose. After that, I was feeling damn mellow and I knew I could be good for the night. Two is usually what it takes for me to get really fucked up and nodding out with my girl.
However, I decided to go for another. I knew this was a lot so I just did half of the third at first. I felt really good. I was watching some reality show and nodding out, but for some reason deicided to do the rest of the third. This is much more than I have ever done. I don't remember much of what happened after that. I definitely passed out. The next thing I know, my girl is coming down stairs, wondering what I'm up to. She finds me passed out on the kitchen table.
So she wakes me up, it scares the shit out of me. I jump up and onto the floor and start flailing all around and shouting about dropping a cigarette. My head then began pounding an ungodly migrain. I couldn't walk straight and my girl said that my eyes looked completely red and crazed. She eventually got me up stairs into bed and put a wet washcloth on my head for the headache which was unlike anything I've felt before. I tried not to fall asleep right away, because I knew I might not wake up. I definitely overdosed. I ODed and my girl probably saved my life by waking me up. There was a good chance she coulda found me cold and stiff laying across the kitchen table the next morning. I'm such a fucking idiot.
posted by bonkers at 10:13 AM
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Hi,I commented and it came out anonymous,it's Bella lurking about,take care
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